Liz Green says about Capricorns ‘ But to most goats, life is a serious business, because it has to be mastered if you want to survive’ ( Astrology for Lovers). I do take life seriously, so seriously that I have struggled with depression since I was a child. So, one of the things that I have had to learn is how to trust. I could go into a long spiel about all the reasons why trust has be a difficult thing to master. But I hate that. I don’t like how people’s weakness or mistakes define them, like not knowing somehow means more than knowing. Everyone has to learn, we are not lesser for having to do so. And everyone’s life lesson plan is different. My spirit and I just were absent on all the days devoted to learning trust.
My reason for posting today is to give thanks.
I thank the universe for giving me countless reasons to trust in life being good over the last year. There are so very many things: My lovely baby daughter born on Darling Husband’s birthday, eleven days late but at home. My father slipping into a weird world of endless hotels and retreats in his Alzheimer’s mind, but maintaining a sense of himself throughout. The magnificent house we live in and get to take care of. The year of reconnecting with our beautiful lost eldest son/stepson after four years of no contact being returned at all. The joy of all our animals. Buddy the amazing escaping Lab. Flash the best fox watchdog ever. The geese, ducks, chickens, rabbits, fish, turtles and now Johnny the African land snail.
And most importantly you all my friends. All of you have encouraged, challenged, helped, loved, forgiven, fought with and befriended my family and I , this year.
I especially give thanks to the two lovely families that let me feed them Thanksgiving dinner tonight. (You know who you are!) They have given unstintingly to my family and children since we have first met them. I treasure the times we spend together, and feel so blessed that my children can know and play with their children. They are vibrant families, different but similar in their passion for their children’s wellbeing and their joy in life. To you, thank you!!!!!
I was moved by your beautifully written post. Thanks for sharing your experience! I didn’t realize trust is difficult for you because you’re so open. I agree everyone’s life lesson plan is different and that we should not be defined by our weaknesses. Owning flaws is a courageous act during an era when many people are content to pretend and reduce life to “keeping up with the Joneses”. I’m glad you had a good Thanksgiving, and that you are among my treasured friends. xo
Thank you for your very kind comments! Yes, learning to trust in others, and the universe is a huge life lesson for me, probably because it means relinquishing some of my saturnine control needs. I do think that the saying on my husband’s t-shirt: ‘Just because you are paranoid, doesn’t mean that They are not out to get you’ sums up my default setting well. But default or instinctual reactions to life limit our experience. I know that you know me in the real non-blogging world, but just because someone is emotionally open, don’t underestimate what he or she is not showing you! My Scorpion Moon allows me to openly dramatise my feelings, but they tend to be a slight of hand distracting the other from truly seeing or cottoning on to what I feel inside. I do not feel open at all, and often confide in different friends on different subjects so that no one friend is privy to all of my mess! How controlling is that! However I also understand that life lessons are just that, a lesson to be learned throughout life.
Beautiful! I recently went through a few weeks of acute pain due to a medical condition. It was during this period that the realization that I was blessed to be reasonably healthy otherwise (the medical condition was comparatively minor) was reinforced. I am indeed blessed to have recovered quickly and to have my family be with me to give me their unconditional help, support and love. I am blessed every moment of my life and I profoundly thank the Universal Power for it.
It is so healthy to rejoice in our good times as well as being aware of when times are bad. I do believe that there is a cycle to life, and that we can choose how we react to these waves of fortune/disaster. There are so many people struggling this holiday season. But when I hear their tales of woe, inside I thank the Goddess that for once this christmas we sort of have our shit together. Ok both cars need to go into garage for emergeny repairs, have just had to leave my baby to return to work, and there are a few other things. However, I think we have enough cash to pay for those repairs, I still have a job in this economic climate and hey I have a beautiful wonderful family that I get to share the struggle with. Thanks for reading and taking the time to leave such a lovely comment.
Woh! Johnny the African Land Snail – him I have to meet. See you all soon. xxx